The calm before the storm

First and foremost, good luck to everybody for the trials

Furthermore, don't stress too much. Try to relax and be calm and composed

On the other hand, if you're that stressful type and it works for you. then so be it

Ultimately, at the end of the day if you know you've done the best you could do. then that's good enough

As you can see. I'm getting myself into essay mode for tomorrow. I feel relatively calm amongst all the F******** ,the FML's and the 'i'm so screwed for trials' that i've been seeing pop up everywhere.

It's been a while since i've blogged. and not because i've been working very hard. maybe squeezing a smidget of work in every now and then. english pretty much dominates my life. and it doesn't feel like you've done much or made progress.

in my mind i've been cutting deals with myself. which is really bad
"ok i'll start memorising after i read the paper"
"ok i'll start revising after 7"
"ok i'll start doing work after i watch ashes highlights"
"ok i'll get onto my module B as soon as i do some maths"

which prompted me to ask myself. why do we hate study so much? i mean what is it about sitting down on a chair and learning stuff that makes it so detestable. some of the stuff is kinda interesting actually. what i really detest is memorising information for the sake of getting a good mark for it in an exam. there's really no purpose to that. 10 seconds after the exam. you forget it all again
unless it is english of course. whereas you can't really reproduce some fine work without memorising something. unless you're naturally super talented with writing.

anyways moving onto what i've done recently:
- library hopping as usual in an attempt to study

here's just a snippet i took while walking to state library. just realised. it was city2surf today damn i miss those carefree fun days. stupid guilty study feelings
- doing nothing at school
- going for a run
- drinking large gloria jeans cookies n cream everyday because i can't bite (braces)

today i was feeling hungry so i went to a local chinese restaurant to eat a bit and memorise my essays. didn't quite work. i was just staring at the page reading the same lines a hundred times because of a little awkward situation

so i walk into the restaurant. take a seat. oh and this restaurant is called taste of shanghai or something. and it's really popular, so it's always packed inside. so i take a seat and more people come in a sit next to the table beside me. The tables are like 2-seaters lined against each other in pairs.



So there i'm tryna read through my blade runner while drinking my soup and tea. The people sitting next to me are a chinese uni girl who by her accent i can tell just transfered from china. and her mum. so they start going on about food in chinese which is really distracting xD though it is my fault. since a restaurant is hardly a place to study
so anyways. all the people clear out since its 4pm and they've finished eating. except for the uni girl, her mum and 3 or 4 other people sitting somewhere else. there are heaps of other empty seats since other people have left. but they still sit there cause you know. its a bit rude or weird to suddenly change seats

its like when you're on the train when its jampacked and your sitting next to some person. then suddenly theres an empty seat cause someone leaves. you don't (well most people don't) get up and hog that empty seat cause its a bit rude.

stupid social situations. belonging and all this other crap. i won't go on any further since i think most of you will be confused at this stage